First of all, I suck at blogging, which is pretty apparent given I haven't blogged in a MONTH. But in my defense it's been one hell of a month! Which leads us to the purpose behind this entry: I am so goddamn happy that I have to blog it.
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As my birthday approached, I, as most people do, began to analyze my progress in life. For the first time ever, I was more than pleased with what I found. Do I have everything I ever wanted? No; in fact the "most important" things are missing but those are things I do not have full control over. What I do have control over is me and I've seen myself grow out of a lot of bad habits...bad habits that caused me a lot of pain and suffering. I still have a lot left but I am definitely working on those as well.
It's impossible for me to adequately express how I'm feeling about my life right now. I have no way to quantify anything and a qualitative analysis would be entirely subjective and may not translate to others. I could list all the things I feel I've accomplished but what good would that do when most people don't value what I value and may not see what I see?
The best way I can describe how I'm feeling is FREE. I feel free and invincible, as though I've learned to shield myself from the things that normally weigh people down so not only am I light enough to fly but I'm immune to being caught. I hope that makes sense to you because it makes sense to me and it's the only way I know how to tell you. I wish everyone could feel this good.
